i'm days before my birthday!

it's already 12:10 but i can't go to sleep!



i think i suffer from insomnia don't you think?

but because of this i feel that the days are passing by so quickly that i might wake up not knowing that it is already my 15th birthday. haha. whenever it is your birthday you do think its just a day for you to get old. a day wherein all you do is to have fun and by the next day its back to your old, normal, stressful life. But for me i have a different perspective during birthdays. because it isn't just about getting a year older it's about getting more mature. now those 2 things are different.


being fifteen is what i have longed for. why? because i always wanted to accomplish something by that age. during my birthday it's no longer a kiddie party (which by the way i want) starting at age 11 i was given a more serious type of birthday. you know what i mean? no more balloons, no more cake, no more songs. it was sad. but thingking about it i knew that it was a sign for me to move one with that carefree phase of my life and start owning up to my actions.


i realized this year that i might as well work hard to achieve whatever i want in my life. being 14 is tough but how much more if i grow a year older? wouldn't it be more of a daunting year ahead of me? i just think of it as a journey i need to take for me to know myself better and hopefully end up stronger. wiser. and better.