thoughts...

I remembered convincing my mom to let me study in Manila. I was grade 6 back then and i was just about to graduate. I applied for Ateneo but it was too late then. Got an application for La Salle Greenhills and was bound for the entrance test. During my graduation i gave a a speech which ended in a statement "..with a strong Atenean background, let's move on!" People then asked my mom where was I headed for High School. My mom said La Salle! They then got surprised for reasons I don't know why. Maybe they were stunned i was not going to study in Cagayan de Oro or they felt shocked I betrayed them. (Of course, it was just a career move for me! haha!)

Two years later, here I am a sophomore at probably the most prominent high school in the country, La Salle Greenhills. Despite my already established stature, acceptable lifestyle, many friends and a place where i was at home, i left and started all over again in Manila. I wanted to take a risk and explore new horizons. I wanted to search what was i destined for and i knew that i was always destined for something great!

My classmates and friends likewise ask me why I didn't study in Xavier Univeristy High School. I always tell them it is because people already knew what was I capable of. They already set the limitations for me and prohibited me to explore the things i wanted to do. Here in La Salle, I didn't have to live up to any standards. I am just being me all the way. Its nice that I get not to participate, stay at the sidelines and just watch. People don't definitely know who am I.

What i wished for was what i got and much more. I wished for anonymity and i got it. But then, is that what i really want? I think not! I realized that i contradict myself in a lot of ways. I moved here to get noticed but here i am being a nobody! It is sad that I wished for me to be this way.

One thing that i hate is that I would be mediocere. It's not something I want to be. And it is somebody i would never ever be! Help me God... turn me into the person you want me to be! Your will be done not mine....