there is this personality issue i have been forced to deal today...
and if you are asking why am i actually paying attention to this:
it's because i'm losing my friends!
my friends say im too intimidating.
am i?
even my seatmate blurted out that he is scared of me because i intimidate him.
a friend of mine jokingly asks some of my classmates not to allow me bullying them.
a classmate once told me that i'm too mayabang.
and suddenly one of my best friends said that i make him feel insecure. he said that whenever he is with me he feels that he always makes a mistake and that i scare him away.
i really do not know how to react to these revelations because i am not aware that they are in fact hurt with what i am saying. i thought that they have learned to live up or be accustomed to my personality. or shall i say...
A-T-T-I-T-U-D-E!
and if you are asking why am i actually paying attention to this:
it's because i'm losing my friends!
my friends say im too intimidating.
am i?
even my seatmate blurted out that he is scared of me because i intimidate him.
a friend of mine jokingly asks some of my classmates not to allow me bullying them.
a classmate once told me that i'm too mayabang.
and suddenly one of my best friends said that i make him feel insecure. he said that whenever he is with me he feels that he always makes a mistake and that i scare him away.
i really do not know how to react to these revelations because i am not aware that they are in fact hurt with what i am saying. i thought that they have learned to live up or be accustomed to my personality. or shall i say...
A-T-T-I-T-U-D-E!
what's funnier is that i, myself, am sensitive too! i take things personally and i think over time i had to look out for myself. i hate it when people step down on me that is why i have developed an intimidating aura. i stand my ground and you stay where you are supposed to stay. as simple as that!
i do have to admit that i sometimes get irked when someone becomes too shallow! i become impatient when they become idle and dumb. i want things done my way and there really is no room for your drama. but for me.. there should be enough space alloted. however, usually when i do this its either i was joking or i was not. most of the time i say sorry and take back what i just said because i really am impulsive when i'm with friends.
now, there is no other recourse but to change my ways because it's my friendship with others that is at stake here. i would say that i'll have to adjust to those who are not used to this "what-you-see-is-what-you-get" attitude of mine. but i think that I AM WHAT I AM! take it or leave it. haha.
Moral lesson?
having a personality would definitely set one apart.
i do have to admit that i sometimes get irked when someone becomes too shallow! i become impatient when they become idle and dumb. i want things done my way and there really is no room for your drama. but for me.. there should be enough space alloted. however, usually when i do this its either i was joking or i was not. most of the time i say sorry and take back what i just said because i really am impulsive when i'm with friends.
now, there is no other recourse but to change my ways because it's my friendship with others that is at stake here. i would say that i'll have to adjust to those who are not used to this "what-you-see-is-what-you-get" attitude of mine. but i think that I AM WHAT I AM! take it or leave it. haha.
Moral lesson?
having a personality would definitely set one apart.
it's okay to be you just as long as you don't step down on anybody!
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