"I am always happy when I'm surrounded by water. The ocean really makes me feel small and it puts my whole life into perspective. It reminds me that, okay, I'm this very little piece of this huge earth and it humbles you and it grounds you."

I just lifted it from somewhere and I wish those were my words. I've always said that this is not a fashion blog. There neither are outfit photos nor pictures of the food I had for lunch. (Not that there is anything wrong with it, it's just that there are other bloggers who are quite good with that. Besides, what I eat is not anything out of the ordinary. And if I did I'll probably blog about it too. Hahah!) And so, every chance I get, I shall blog based on what I feel I have to say. Blogging is a personal diary after all, right? 

I guess it's one of those days that makes you realize a few things. With the rain outside and I'm immobile in my bed, my brain begins to wander around. I'm just so thankful for everything really. What are those things? Just everything in general. Reaching up to this point where I can say I'm quite happy with how things are. I've always felt like it is important for you to acknowledge this type of contentment and happiness. It is fleeting. The next day I will feel different but at least I know for a fact that today, I'm feeling pretty damn good about myself.

People have come and go and I've learned that it's fine. There's a reason why they don't make it to your future. I've made a lot of mistakes and pushed people away. But in the end, things work out just okay. Some things may not turn out for my favor and I may not get what I want all the time. But the reroute was where I was destined to be. Just a few weeks back, I felt the weight of the world on my shoulders and I was feeling pretty bad. But it's really true that things have to get worse before they start to get better. And they have. They really have.

I'm feeling very grateful for every opportunity that I have had, the people I have the privilege of meeting, all the possibilities and future plans just all look very exciting that I'm convinced more than ever that I'm in the right disposition. 

That's really what this post is all about. The uncertainties and the hazy direction of my life before is now becoming more and more sure. I realized that it takes so much time for other people to know what they want and I'm lucky that I already know my gameplan. Success for me isn't about getting recognized. It isn't about the number of praises you get from random strangers. Rather it's about paying your dues and taking the time to learn the craft and actually excelling at it. Success shouldn't be chased. It's always the need to quench that longing for fame that makes it all too sudden that the next thing you know--- it's gone. 

So this is already the concluding paragraph. Haha. I may have bored the hell out of you but I hope you picked up a few insights along the way. I'm not anywhere near the beach but yes, definitely, it's very easy to lose yourself in this blogging world where everyone just praises everyone left and right. It's nice to filter it out sometimes and be dubious about success. I never want to lose that instinct of being self critical. I'm also lucky that most of my friends tell me the truth right away and never attempt at sugar coating. 

This has been going on for so long now so I'll just end by saying, thank you for reading and I hope you just keep at it at what you are doing! Strive for excellence and success will follow through! :D


Esme said...

More of your writing, please.

Lorenz said...

HAHA HI ESME Long time no comment

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